Sunday, 22 July 2012

Fragments of the Discourse of a Bad Doll


The shower was broken. The wiring in the bathroom was all messed up. The laundry room too. I called the electrician. 
He was serious, an engineer, but when the music came on he turned into a performance actress.
The situation started getting weird. He tried to say something that would uncover the feeling of Annihilation: “In half an hour there will be light”.
I came back and lit a cigarette. I took off my briefs, covered up my genitals and put on lace panties.
He wanted to be another person, but there was no way! He was hemmed in by his own frame! Awful!
The neighbors complained, but I put on some Bjork, real loud.
I don’t know if that’s too big a deal.
I was really scared of him. His blue uniform – an electrician thing, sort of policeman-like.
I don’t know much about theology. I wanted to talk about what was happening, but he just kept singing real loud, at the same volume as the music.
To a Catholic that would be heresy (He was terrifying!)
Because he wanted to be another person, more blue.
His cigarette breath, like Derby Reds, made me all wet.
He could at least be her cousin or half-sister.
My imaginary pussy overflowed, making a fountain whose spout was my dick.
In more revealing everyday way, he squeezed my arm, calling me dude, homeboy. I’d never felt my womanhood so offended!
The birthday party was part of that ritual.
I’m practically Bjork’s cousin, half-sister.
It’s all about how you look at it. I hate women who do double penetrations. I can picture it. My imaginary pussy doesn’t hold real penises. “He’s definitely sort of gross, kind of bluish.”

Music influences people’s lives, did you know that?
But that was another story. He hadn’t realized!
A bakery still-life is a beautiful breakfast.
A policeman has snuck into this tenement housing. It’s sort of a publicity thing.
I think he found out about not being able to speak… He just sang.
Talk of Annihilation!
The leak still hasn’t been fixed and he’s going to be your lover.
During the day ___ was annihilated. So she was arrested and didn’t fuck the policeman.
At night, ___ was annihilated. Have you ever been harassed by a policeman?
Did you get over defining the pronoun?
Already?
And if the twin towers were horizontal?
 It’s not true!
It’s just a game. (shh!)
Good thing the guy had time to come. He was putting his dick back into his pants, when the cops interrupted the act.
After talking for two minutes he was totally naked. That was when we realized they’d already sung “Happy Birthday”. We hadn’t heard a thing, Bjork was playing too loud. Nothing, nothing was finished. It’s possible that he, just after coming inside her, puts the handcuffs right on. Feel gutted. No hurry. As if a terrorist act had just happened right before your eyes. After smoking a cigarette like Derby Reds: Booooooooooom!!!
Goodbye, Bjork.